K emailed a list of household items that he plans on taking when he moves out. Many of the items he brought into the relationship. The others are some of the joint purchases. The list is fair but a couple of items may need further negotiation.
I felt like I had been slapped in the face after I read the list. It was another reminder that our relationship is dead. It had nothing to do with the items on the list. I don’t know why the list had such an emotional effect on me. I’ve been trying to figure it out since Monday.
I had planned to call G about getting together again but now I’m not sure that is a good idea. I’m not sure of anything. I think I’ve been supressing my feelings and not dealing with them. I feel lost and empty once again.
