Did 150 of them this afternoon. Bodyweight training is so effective for getting into shape
You might as well do a routine at that point
I isolated myself from everyone because I was an insignificant piece of shit that ruins even the smallest interaction and could only function as a depressive anchor that drags down all my friends and everyone else around me. I only really look for jobs but I haven't had any luck there. My family members routinely drive me to the edge of suicide as well but I've learned to numb myself completely and not react to anything they say or do, and I don't really feel like dying anymore. I spent this whole time thinking about my issues and getting over things from the past, and I've made progress there so that's at least one good thing. I don't care if I have to pretend to enjoy things for months or years, I just wanna move on.
Just remembered you are a valuable person. The things your depression tells you about yourself are not true. Friends do care about you and want to help you. You do not disadvantage them as long as you also care about them. I would recommend that you see a licensed councilor or therapist.
Thanks lol, I do want them to know I'm alive at least. I've went to therapy but to put things lightly, the quality of help from him and that establishment were below the standards of what the average person expects from such a thing.
I'm not schizoaffective but I've had a personality disorder in the past, and I have Exploding Head Syndrome which is a beautiful jack-in-the-box full of horrificaly loud auditory hallucinations, it's not really the same thing but I have a little experience with not being in control of things of that nature.
Me lol, sucks when you become an adult and realize you never had any real wants or desires
nah, it's worse when you have wants and desires, achieve them, and realize they still don't make you happy.
Was it really a waste of time for you?
A combination of these:
- If they've ever made you feel guilty for saying 'no' or looking after yourself
- If you came out of your childhood all confused about your identity
- If you're asking this question
- If you have little to no boundaries
- If you're hyper vigilant
- If you question yourself more than you should
- If you've been "trained" to please and answer to other people's needs
- If you walk on eggeshells around them
- If you're an adult and they still make your decisions (or attempt to)
- If they're liars, deniers, and sweep-under-the-rug-ers
- If they've used any of these lines: "but we're family", "after everything I've done for you...", something about sacrifice, something about them being a victim, "you should be grateful for [...]"
- If they have anger issues and unexpectedly blow up at really dumb things
- If there are deep communication issues in your family
- Being expected to take care of others (esp. when you're just a child yourself)
- Fucked up dynamics and way of 'connecting' to each other
- Drama, arguments, judgments, criticism, chaos
- Being the family's punching bag
- No emotional support
- Neglect
- Physical abuse
- Emotional abuse
- Verbal abuse
- Projection
- Gaslighting
- Shame
- Overprotection
I clicked on this thread because I wanted to know the same thing. After having typed this list, I'm pretty sure I was abused and raised by narcissists because I check off on all points.
All of these are exactly my life as well... I wanna go to heaven cause I'm living in hell (the rhyme wasn't on purpose lol)
I wish I didn't read this
The squirrels are still in their own universe looking for regular Morty, it'd be pretty awesome if after some huge dimension-crossing mad scientist Batman Belt style showdown Rick, Morty or someone drops him in the squirrel universe and they get rid of this guy with a death acorn or something. That'd be a great way for the squirrels, at least the ones from that specific universe to get another appearance.
The blender dimension's just another random insta-kill button, this is a more situational death.
Sadly I have to live here, and here, in the real world, rules apply. I always lose something when I get something. It's always a trade. At some point I was ok with the trade I was making for porn, but for some reason, I keep on trying to stop liking it. I wish I didn't like porn, but I do. It's kinda hard to explain.
The way you're talking it sounds like you're not the boss in your own mind, but you can't really submit to something that doesn't exist in the first place. You think you like porn because just looking at a pornographic image gives you dopamine, people with huge streaks can't completely avoid that, but they just ignore it and go on their way. I don't have all the answers but you can look up what people who have success in NoFap do and just do that, that's how I've been going about things instead of making the same mistakes.
How long is this withdrawal? I failed after three fucking months, and only because of two wet dreams in a row. I should have been ok with it. But no, after that relapse, every streak got shorter and shorter
Hey you're doing great man! I see you're doing streaks again instead of flapping around on a pile of rat shit called pornography, just want to let you know that it won't kill you to not watch porn, it's literally just a popular button you have to not press.
I don't have a problem telling people I'm a little close to about my worst memories or thoughts, which is a huge problem for me. Even when I specifically tell myself not to talk about bad memories or bad things that happened in my life, it just makes it worse and brings all those to the surface. I really try to compartmentalize this shit but I don't have all the answers. What are you guys' LPTs for this?
Try to process these feelings when you are with friends you already trust.
But you have to process the sadness and anger inside of you in a healthy way. Some of the best methods (i urge you to try them even if it feels wrong, stepping out of the comfort zone is often just what is right) are to do mindfullness/meditation, physical exercise and deliberate exercises to get anger out such as punching a cardboard with the image of someone who hurt you or imagining punching somebody that abused you.
I do all of those things but I don't like to imagine harming someone or being harmed, especially specific people, I think that creates a sort of weird psychology.
Well, it's either yourself or them. Who will you let be the hero of your mind?
I do have a desire to do more than the next guy when it comes to that. You said the most epic shit I've heard all day lol, in the end you have to be the person you need for yourself, then you'll actually draw from a pool of positivity instead of dancing around negativity.
Exactly, I used to fap prone on my bed. The pressure and friction was much better and got addicted. Not anymore.
I've been doing the same thing since a kid and this is like a wake up call for me
What did you do afterwards? For a little over a year this affected me until I abruptly felt normal again, like I'm actually inside of my body, but there's a huge lack of drive, I have literally no desire to do anything at all, like I was in so much intense pain and now I'm just dead. I haven't told anyone about my dpdr, but after all the shit that I said and did because of the delusional view of reality forced upon me, my friends and family know I went through some really fucked up shit. Right now I just do things like meditate and exercise so this shit never happens to me again, but I know I can't let this one year define my entire life.
plz help me...i Recovered from derealization in. 4 months. but now im having similar complaints as u.. i have mild depression and anhedonia...and i keep obsessing bout .my recovery to my normal oldself...may b its d reason for my depression and lack of drive...im stuck in a cycle. plz ..did u revover ,? hw do u feel.nw?
Honestly I'm doing a lot better than when I wrote this post. I'm not so jarred and traumatized by dpdr anymore, and I'm in the process of getting over my issues so I'm better able to spread laughter and positivity.
Don't get me wrong I think once you've had dpdr it's always inside you somewhere very deep, but you can live an enjoyable life again. Honestly just being on this sub again and thinking about being dpdr'ed is making me feel a little weird lol. If it's not a therapist don't tell people you had dpdr, it won't help. I kind of act like my old self but my friends say I talk about bad memories and sad things a lot more, guess that's the depression and anhedonia talking lol. I don't regret being depersonalized because it's put every other bad thing in my life in perspective, and I care about living more now than I ever did most of my life. You can get your life straight and get what you've never had man, just don't give up and you'll recover with time.
This just inspired me to start working out again
I just finished Houseki no Kuni and I really don't know what to watch after this.
Kanyes sunken place is a raised platform in Sacramento
Anywhere is a sunken place when you're off that Lexapro
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"Yea you were raped but you don't need to be so passive aggressive about it"
I could spoil it for you if you want, the raws came out a while ago. It's a disappointing ending. It would be via PM though
Final art is as hot as you'd expect
edit: sending em as fast as I can
edit 2: at least say something after I send the spoiler guys come on now, thanks or something
edit 3: send me a PM if you want the spoilers. I will only reply, I won't spoil through here via comments
edit 4: Fell asleep, but now I am catching up. There's more than 100 PMs lol
I'd also like to know
I remember when my mom told my aunt that I was in the hospital for my depression because she "had to tell somebody" Next thing you know, my aunt remixed the story and told everybody in the family I was tryin' to commit suicide
Same, people with the least information make up the most shit in their heads
After getting out the shower, my immediate thought was "I can't deal with this." Out of nowhere, a voice within my mind countered it saying "Yes you can." I don't know if it fits here but I'm really happy I had a thought that wasn't filled with misery, melancholy, and disgust.
Have been following this one weekly since chapter 1. It's really good
Same, the world building kind of reminds me of Elder Scrolls, and the story just gets better and better.
So it's Negan but instead of being a dictator imposing on you with guns and baseball bats, he'll fuck you over in really small ways like an annoying sibling
Every villain from here on out is going to be similar to Negan if you want for them to be.
Well he pulled up on all of them with a bunch of trucks and gave a little speech, the only difference was he did his homework instead of bashing someone's head in, so I think it's definitely supposed to remind you of Negan in a sense.
I liked how FtWD focused more on the family as a unit, being in communities but having a priority above that, while TWD was more like one sized community vs another, so it feels like they jumped from one playing field to the next. I'm not complaining though because this show was always more political, and this villain represents that.
Bastards
Say that 10 days from now
Why don't you guys so something actually useful and productive like lift weights, lose weight, train cardio, or try learning a new language instead of something useless like not jacking off lol
Why not both?
80% black. Show me a place in the USA that is as big as Gary with 80% black that isn't scary.
Oh no it's the Hip Hop people!
We all have our own personal reasons to smoke, and I realized that shapes the relationship one builds with powerful ganja. I want to smoke simply because I like weed and its effects, but I'm really interested in other people's reasons and how they view weed because of that.
So I can sleep and not have violent nightmare dreams of being raped and forced into child pornography, why do you ask?
Well damn
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