Today I’m feeling better. Not all-the-way better, just better enough that I’m starting to feel like I’m being lazy. To be clear, I know I’m not being lazy (I’m still dizzy when I’m standing up) and I know I need to keep resting to recover fully; but knowing it and feeling it are two different things.
Today I coped with that in-between feeling of I’m-sick-but-also-I-should-do-something-useful by working on the new bullet journal I’ll be starting next month. That this was more a diversion than actual productivity should be obvious to everyone when I admit that I spent two hours drawing little doodles of houseplants.
(You heard me. I said what I said.)
I’m an idiot, though, in that I didn’t consider what those two hours of doodling would do to my hand—yes, the hand I had surgery on last month. It was cramping by the time I pulled my pencil away from the paper. I think I’ll drop the journaling for the rest of the weekend.
(Oh, who am I kidding? The allure of those adorable little doodles is too great. I’ll probably be inking them by tomorrow afternoon.)
I feel like I should be better at striking a balance between rest and activity (or work,) but what I’ve actually gotten very good at is careening between doing cool stuff and then recovering from said cool stuff. Of course, times like these when I didn’t do anything cool and I still need to rest and recover… well, it’s frustrating, no question. And it’s very very hard to get the balance right. But I’m trying. And failing. And trying again…





