TheCreatures

"Then there’s also the fact that once you move on mentally from something, it’s hard to get the energy and focus to go back to it, even if your intentions are/were earnest."

This. I'm immensely upset at myself over this final disappointment to you all on my behalf. This is something I thought I could take on, but with how everything went down in the end and my own mental health issues that I've been dealing with I haven't been able to attempt to even compile footage let alone reach out to everyone and coordinate it. This stuff has been a very tough thing for me to deal with on top of trying to level myself out. I literally hate on myself everyday over this stuff. As many wonderful and amazing things that have come out of this life changing experience, there are some deep personal wounds that I haven't been able to overcome and have emerged far less healthy mentally. Moving on and focusing on my streaming has been the one of the handful of joys I've had to focus on. I want to help y'all look fondly on the past, but for me it's all a sore wound that's tough to look back at fondly right now. It's been that way for me well before it ended, because I failed it. I tried to pass along the responsibility of taking on the video once I knew I couldn't go through footage without getting anxious or just plain depressed, but there was a miscommunication and it didn't move on to someone else like I thought it had. So I don't know what the plan is now and I'm sorry.

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