Dainty Kay's

12/01/2014

Here For Today

I'm not going to say that I'm back to blogging because that would be a lie.

But I'm feeling that pull to start blogging again.

I get this feeling every year, around this time.

So today, I'm just going to jump in. I may just be talking to myself but that's okay.

We moved six months ago into a much bigger house. Maybe one day, I'll post photo's but right now, I'm only going to do what I can. Uploading a picture just seems like too much trouble.

I love it here but everything is completly disorganized. With homeschooling and teaching, I can't find the time to work on anything for long periods of time.

But today, I put a plan together and I failed at it, but I did get my grocery shopping done. I have a fridge full of healthy food, which will lead to a healthy start of the week. Well, I hope so.

And I am going to redecorate my tree tonight. I had it all decorated but Andrew hated it and so I took it all down. It was so pretty though but I wanted him to be happy. So I took off my turquoise balls and I'll somehow include them in the rest of the decorating.

Only two more weeks of school and then we can rest and clean and organize.

Dec 1, 2014 4:00:03 PM | Everyday

09/24/2013

an update on my emme

I'm amazed that just two weeks ago we were dealing with the aftermaths of a "chili accident." My little Emme was burned. We were so worried about her. But...by the grace of God, she is healed. Her skin looks incredible. We were told that she will still have the marks for a few more years but there should be no permanent scars. We are so thankful. Praising the Lord for His many blessings.

Sep 24, 2013 11:03:54 PM | Emmaline, Everyday, Faith

09/23/2013

what a beautiful day

She is eight and so lovely. Her heart is beautiful. She is gentle and kind. I'm loving watching her grow but wanting to keep that "little girl" in her.

Funny story... The kids were dancing to the twister version of, "I Whip My Hair Back and Forth," and she was obviously really feeling the music. Cracks me up!

My boys... they are twelve. They are so handsome and so kind. I asked him to go stand beside the tree and she just ran right up to him. Melt me.

She is so wild. So beautiful. So special.

Thank you, Lord, for this day.

Sep 23, 2013 11:28:30 PM | Everyday

creating is the best kind of pastime

(A sweet little banner that I made for a friend. She doesn't even know it's coming her way. Those are the best kind of gifts!)

I've been stealing away moments here and there to create. Naptimes, in between writing and math, after dinner and lots of late nights. I think it is the time of year that calls me just to "make." Most of the time it is the simpliest things but it makes me so happy.

So thankful.

Sep 23, 2013 4:10:12 PM | Craftiness

09/16/2013

She Desired

1 Thessalonians 4:11

Make it your goal to live a quiet life, minding your own business and working with your hands, just as we instructed you before.

You are welcome to print this as an 8x10. Just click and download to your computer. Enjoy!

Update on Emme: Thank you for your prayers. She is doing so well. As of today she doesn't have to wear anymore bandages. We are in awe of our Creator and how He made our bodies. Praise the Lord.

Sep 16, 2013 10:16:18 PM | Craftiness, Everyday

09/13/2013

So Thankful

Sunday night I was cooking dinner. I had just made a huge pot chili. I was scooping out the chili onto plates. Kids in and out of the kitchen. You can imagine the scene. My sweet little Emme started to climb the chair. One of my sons grabbed her trying to prevent her from getting hurt while trying to balance a plate of chili in his other hand. You can imagine what happened next. It slid off the plate onto Emme's neck and shoulders. I quickly cleaned her off and rushed her to the tub. We immediately knew that we had to go to the ER. It was that bad. Her skin. I don't think I'll ever get that image out of my mind.

This week is a bit of a blur now. She has 1st and 2nd degree burns on her neck, shoulders and her hand. She went to a burn clinic today and we are so relieved say that she is going to be fine. We have had so many people praying for us. Thank you!

I posted this yesterday on instagram but I wanted to share it here too.

I am thankful for medicine that heals wounds and heals our souls. What a hard week this has been. Yesterday and this morning I had so much anxiety. Took the boys to their co-op and dropped Lillie off at preschool. Sat down and really rested since before Emme's accident on Sunday night. I'm so grateful. So grateful that He only gives what we can handle. And although it feels sometimes as if it is more it is then that He leads us to Him. He cradles us. Protects us and gives us so much Grace.

Sep 13, 2013 12:08:07 AM | Emmaline, Everyday, Faith

09/12/2013

Mug Swap 2013

I had the privilege to participate in A Cuppa Kim's mug swap this year and let me tell you, it was so much fun. Who doesn't love getting happy mail? This arrived from a new instagram friend of mine. Isn't it lovely? Jenny, you did so well. I love it. I have yet to write in that lovely journal yet but the note cards are almost all gone! I use the mug just about every morning. The butterfly in the bottom makes me smile. Thank you!

I sent my package to Angie.

This really was so much fun. Thank you Kim for putting it together. I can't wait until next year!

Sep 12, 2013 11:48:32 PM | Craftiness

06/18/2013

The Other Side

It's been a week and I feel like I can finally say that I'm doing much better and actually really believe it. There are times when my emotions go a little off course and then it reminds me of what happened and I feel sadness creeping in but its slowly going away. I feel like I can think more clearly now and look back on the miscarriage as God's will. I always knew that it was, God's will, but believing it was a different story. He is healing my heart though. I wanted to say thank you to all those on instagram, facebook and those who commented on here. I am truly thankful for your prayers. Please know that they were a great comfort and blessed my heart. Truly. Thank you.

Jun 18, 2013 6:31:27 AM | Miscarriage

06/13/2013

I'm Not Myself

I think its sinking in. Last night I had a glass of wine. Today I had to take migraine medicine. This is real. And I am so upset. I can't stand this person who is so unable to control her emotions. One minute I am me. Kind, gentle, pretty together. Well, as together as I can get. And the next, I am irritated. At the smallest thing. I'm angry. Hurt. Over absolutely nothing at all. I feel so out of myself. Breathe. Breathe. Breathe.

This part hurts more than actually losing the baby. This is the part of healing and I know it. This is the part of breaking down. When your emotions take over. I don't like this part. This part hurts. I'm so mad at myself.

This is the grieving, huh? This is the part where you can't just sugar-coat it. God, I don't like this.

I really feel that I've accepted this. I think I know why my body rejects certain babies. I'm pretty sure that it has to do with the antibodies in Andrew's blood and sometimes my body rejects them. It's a comfort to know that there is a why. It's a comfort to know that I have five miraculous blessings and I can actually bear children. But the sadness. It hurts.

God, I know why. But this grieving, I want to be over it.

I want to be healed.

It takes time. I know it.

I told Andrew yesterday that I wasn't back. I just felt it. My mind. My thoughts. It just wasn't in order.

I'm ranting. I'm crying. And honestly, in an hour. I'll probably feel better.

But, I want to remember.

For next time.

God, forbid there be a next time. But, if there is. This will pass. I'll get through it. There will be healing on the other side.

Breathe.

Pray.

Rest.

Jun 13, 2013 11:21:54 AM | Miscarriage

06/12/2013

The Day After

It felt good to wake up this morning. I went into the kitchen and prepared an omelet for my husband. Greek yogurt with strawberries. I made the coffee. Let the dog out. Took my husband breakfast and woke him up. Laid beside him. He ate quietly and I didn't say a word. After he finished he sat on the floor beside my bed and we talked. Not long. He had to be at school early. But it felt good to talk. It felt good to connect.

The day after feels somewhat normal. I'm sure today will require a lot of resting. My emotions are still all over the place so I think it is best to stay home. I'm tired. Emotionally tired. A part of me just wants to sleep for about two days straight. But I know that is not possible. I'm a little numb. In ways that I can't really describe yet.

I'm praying but in more of an acceptance and acknowledging mode, if that makes sense. I'm still really sad. A friend told me yesterday that when she starts to talk to God, she knows that she is healing. I'm not really there yet. I know He is close and He is patient.

I keep thinking of what I wrote yesterday, Five souls in the family room, and five in Heaven. I'm so thankful for those five souls that live. Am I thankful for the five that didn't? I am. I have seen the blessing in each passing.

But I'm still sad.

The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. Ps 34:18

Jun 12, 2013 7:21:05 AM | Faith, Miscarriage